As of now I will turing on all my deviations and journals back on.
I think I am ready to start becoming social once more.
Though I dont come on as much anymore and really I have nothing but negative things to say...
I actually have some good things to say finally.
I have decided if people arent going to make an effort to do their part in a relationship between them and I, meaning a friendship, which is a relationship might I add. Then its their problem. I am not going to work really hard to try and be around someone if they could care less. If they want to be like that, then they dont need to be my friend. To have friends you have to be one and not communicating or wanting to spend time with someone then your not being a friend. Thats just how it is. I am tired of the stupid excuses, I am not going to deal with them anymore. So thats that. (:
I am not going to be miserable at the expense of others anymore. I am going to live the life I WANT to live and no one can tell me other wise.
If people dont care about me, thats their problem, I will always care about them...for the most part; certain people that is.
I have realized now that people DO care about me. It may be discreet...but I know at least one person cares about me and thats all that should matter right? My family loves me and select people outside of my family, so I shouldnt let those people who just randomly decide to be jerks to get me down -
You see I feel loved and cared about just because someone finally told me that they dont want to ditch me, that I am important to them - they understand I just want to be around them. They tell me I need to be happier.
I dont know what I would do without them. I realize now that I couldnt do it. I wouldnt be able to function or survive.
Hugs just make everything better. As my cousin posted on facebook:
"Hugs are fat-free, sugar free, and require no batteries. Hugs reduce blood pressure, body temperature, heart rate, and help relieve pain and depression. HUG! returns cheerfully accepted."
You see, they are free and totally amazing! (:
I have had a revelation! Pray to God it sticks with me! XDDD
My friend wrote a poem that really got me thinking. But I dont feel it is right to post it here without asking. So yeah.

LOVE YOU ALL WHO TAKE THE TIME TO LOVE ME BACK!